Races of another kind.
The other event that happened to me this weekend was unplanned, and hardly in the holiday spirit.
Returning to my apartment building from the Hot Chocolate race on Saturday, I saw my building super, Dex, outside on the corner chatting with someone. I'd have said hello, but didn't want to interrupt, so I just walked by. I then fumbled with the front of my shorts, unpinning my key ring from the inside band. As I approached the door, someone started speaking to me. I hadn't noticed that I had walked past one of my neighbours, Crazy-Lady-Down-the Hall.
CLDH: "Oh, so you just can't even look us in the face, now, can you?"
Me (looking up, surprised to see her there): Huh?
CLDH: "Y'all just walk on past and don't even look us in the face. Y'all come by and see a black face and y'all go runnin' in your shorts and wearing your music in your ears and talkin' with your cell phone in one ear like you're talkin' to yourselves and don't talk to none of us. You know - you bring you're white faces around here but can't bother to look at our black ones and you don't ever talk or say anything."
Me: "Huh?"
CLDH: "Say, what did y'all do, anyways? Did y'all have some meetin' or somethin'?"
Me: Wha...?
CLDH: "Yeah, you white people go and have some kinda meetin'? Musta, 'cause I don't know what y'all is doin' here, so you musta discussed it. Tell me now - what is it makes a white boy to come on out and decide to move to Harlem anyways?"
At this point, Dex was walking by and just by virtue of his intrusion, it somehow broke the deer-in-headlights trance that I had fallen into. I was strangely mesmerized by her totally outrageous racist accusations, and for those 60 seconds or so, I just couldn't break free.
I don't know how much of the conversation Dex heard, if any. I turned with him as he entered the building. If Crazy Lady was still speaking, I had shut her out at this point. "Oh my god," I said quietly to Dex as we walked through the doorway, "That's really crazy."
"Uh-huh," he muttered under his breath, and as the door clicked shut behind us, he continued out loud: "We gotta get her outta here," and he went upstairs as I went into my apartment.
I've never been accused of racism before like that, and so blatantly and so obviously by someone who is so clearly a racist. And to top it off, I hadn't done anything. I hadn't made any Mel Gibson style or Michael Richards-esque comments or anything like that. It was really, really disturbing, and it's been hard to shake that filthy, filthy feeling that comes with such an exchange (if you can call it an exchange).
It's not the first time this has come up with her, though. When I was returning from the Staten Island Half Marathon in mid-October, I saw her on the corner of 8th and 123rd chatting to someone, and I smiled to say hello. When she saw me, she said to the other person: "See - now this one's smiling at me, but I can't stand all these crackers comin' round here." I just kept walking.
The following Friday morning, I was at home in my apartment and I could hear all three neighbours in the hall discussing how bad the neighbourhood had gotten "since all these crackers started moving in." It was a bizarre conversation - the racist remarks didn't even make sense. At one point Loud-Momma-Next-Door said that she wanted to move out, and if she did, she wanted to sublet her place to a family member, or "a cracker Columbia student." At that point I really wanted to poke my head out of my door and ask why she wouldn't want to sublet to a black Columbia student. I was smart enough to mind my own business, though, but it seems that hasn't helped me any. When I've tried to say hello in the past, they've basically just ignored me. I won't be making that mistake anymore.
I thought about calling the management company and complaining about the comments that Crazy-Lady-Down-the-Hall made on Saturday, but I figured that if I do, she'll just end up complaining about me more when I see her. I don't want to start a war at home. All three neighbours are obviously insane, and the less they're involved in my life the better.
Returning to my apartment building from the Hot Chocolate race on Saturday, I saw my building super, Dex, outside on the corner chatting with someone. I'd have said hello, but didn't want to interrupt, so I just walked by. I then fumbled with the front of my shorts, unpinning my key ring from the inside band. As I approached the door, someone started speaking to me. I hadn't noticed that I had walked past one of my neighbours, Crazy-Lady-Down-the Hall.
CLDH: "Oh, so you just can't even look us in the face, now, can you?"
Me (looking up, surprised to see her there): Huh?
CLDH: "Y'all just walk on past and don't even look us in the face. Y'all come by and see a black face and y'all go runnin' in your shorts and wearing your music in your ears and talkin' with your cell phone in one ear like you're talkin' to yourselves and don't talk to none of us. You know - you bring you're white faces around here but can't bother to look at our black ones and you don't ever talk or say anything."
Me: "Huh?"
CLDH: "Say, what did y'all do, anyways? Did y'all have some meetin' or somethin'?"
Me: Wha...?
CLDH: "Yeah, you white people go and have some kinda meetin'? Musta, 'cause I don't know what y'all is doin' here, so you musta discussed it. Tell me now - what is it makes a white boy to come on out and decide to move to Harlem anyways?"
At this point, Dex was walking by and just by virtue of his intrusion, it somehow broke the deer-in-headlights trance that I had fallen into. I was strangely mesmerized by her totally outrageous racist accusations, and for those 60 seconds or so, I just couldn't break free.
I don't know how much of the conversation Dex heard, if any. I turned with him as he entered the building. If Crazy Lady was still speaking, I had shut her out at this point. "Oh my god," I said quietly to Dex as we walked through the doorway, "That's really crazy."
"Uh-huh," he muttered under his breath, and as the door clicked shut behind us, he continued out loud: "We gotta get her outta here," and he went upstairs as I went into my apartment.
I've never been accused of racism before like that, and so blatantly and so obviously by someone who is so clearly a racist. And to top it off, I hadn't done anything. I hadn't made any Mel Gibson style or Michael Richards-esque comments or anything like that. It was really, really disturbing, and it's been hard to shake that filthy, filthy feeling that comes with such an exchange (if you can call it an exchange).
It's not the first time this has come up with her, though. When I was returning from the Staten Island Half Marathon in mid-October, I saw her on the corner of 8th and 123rd chatting to someone, and I smiled to say hello. When she saw me, she said to the other person: "See - now this one's smiling at me, but I can't stand all these crackers comin' round here." I just kept walking.
The following Friday morning, I was at home in my apartment and I could hear all three neighbours in the hall discussing how bad the neighbourhood had gotten "since all these crackers started moving in." It was a bizarre conversation - the racist remarks didn't even make sense. At one point Loud-Momma-Next-Door said that she wanted to move out, and if she did, she wanted to sublet her place to a family member, or "a cracker Columbia student." At that point I really wanted to poke my head out of my door and ask why she wouldn't want to sublet to a black Columbia student. I was smart enough to mind my own business, though, but it seems that hasn't helped me any. When I've tried to say hello in the past, they've basically just ignored me. I won't be making that mistake anymore.
I thought about calling the management company and complaining about the comments that Crazy-Lady-Down-the-Hall made on Saturday, but I figured that if I do, she'll just end up complaining about me more when I see her. I don't want to start a war at home. All three neighbours are obviously insane, and the less they're involved in my life the better.
Labels: conflicts, daily grind

